Saturday, December 31, 2011


Doing a blog has been something I've talked about (to myself) for a long while now. And I feel, now that I've been alive for more than twenty years, I shouldn't waste my thoughts on myself. So instead, like so many on the internets, I'm going to waste them on everyone else who'll listen.

Anyway, I want to reflect on the things that have brought me to this point. I'm a ministry student about to finish his credentials. I live in the state of Utah (still under construction) and have done so forever. Which, is, in fact, a measurement of time when stuck in our traffic. I'm an assistant to a wonderful youth pastor (not that others aren't) have an awesome relationship, friends, and my mother didn't completely ruin me while I was growing up.

More so than anything that has defined my life, however, has been a constant search in my life. That is, the reason for being alive. My entire philosophy on life is this-we exist, therefore there must be a reason. Indeed, there are many who would argue that we all just kind of, well, showed up to the party uninvited. But I've seen people who live that way-and it is an empty lifestyle. It can lead to a dark pit of despair. What I've noticed today is that people have an need a constant fill of something to fill that pit. Anything. Friends, hobbies, talents, sex. Anything. And while that one may find satisfaction, it isn't enough. "Yes it is, I always party." But there always must be another party. There must always be another drug, friend, sexual encounter.

The truth is, we're looking for a constant. Maybe that's why we make New Year's resolutions. Perhaps we think that if we change for (what we think) is the better, we'll find our constant. That never failing satisfaction of being alive.

What's my point here? My constant is love. Not the kind of love many think of, not a love interest in a film, not a dating relationship. But a heavenly love. One that is, truly, a constant. Christ loves you at any point, He wants to be that part of your life that is always there, never failing, never letting go.

This year, I encourage you to consider what is your constant in life. Especially if you are starting 2012 in a way you wouldn't call your best. Consider what causes you to get out of bed, to be alive. Find it, and hold on to it. Find Him, and He'll hold on to you. Constantly.